Dear Self Doubt,

Making It Big in Shorts by Kim Adelman is filled will good tips and tricks and good information about publishing, contests, alternatives to film school and other film topics. I have once again looked to her for guidance. I have begun to question myself at every turn and have found a wall on all ends of the roads. That is an issue that I seem to have with most new projects, mostly because I know what I want to happen probably wont and yet I reach for it so desperately (she warns against that in her book). One of the more tangible and less abstract issues I have met is money. She writes that when having to "stretch a buck" to "think organically". This means to be resourceful and use settings and the people already around you. I did just that, but now I feel like I have cheated myself from making the film I originally wanted to make. She warned me of this as well. She wrote if I do this all myself I'll be too busy "doing everyone else's job that you can't concentrate on being a director." 

I suppose that the one man band would work with people with abundant amounts of time and a bottomless bank account, but alas I am not one of them. *Sigh*

Yours Truly,

It Is 1:44 AM And This Is Keeping Me Awake